PURE SELFISHNESS
A wise man once said each day is
a major leap of faith, we start each day in the hope that we shall end it well
and that it will end better than it began. I believed that every single day
that I spent living a life that was pleasing to all than to self.
I once met a guy that in actual
reality superseded in all aspects than could count on my toes and fingers
combined, he had this strange sense of weirdness that many people to this day
find very attractive. He was the regular probably 5’10, dark and dressed really
nice and hard not to notice since he was sort of the prime focus of everyone
that met him or came across him. If he was like everyone else I doubt he would
stand out or even get noticed by the average crowd. However things are different
and he kinda lives with it every day. He is a banker, wealthy man, rich and
wears nice perfume.
It was one day in September,
autumn, was an ordinary Saturday with nothing so eventful save for my best friend
having been out running errans instead of her usual studying. I was busy
patching up a piece of carpet that was damaged when we moved into our new room
at varsity. Anyway as I was busy being unreasonable busy I received a text with
directions to a place that my best friend wanted us to meet. So I moved.
As I settled in, I notice him and
the weirdest thing is that I was so sure I knew him from somewhere, just
couldn’t remember where. My family always says that I know too many people
which is partially true. Anyway so I watch him pace and I listened to him
speak. it was the annual Women’s conference that happened every time around the
year. At the back of my mind I wondered, “why the heck do they have to have a
man speak at a Women’s Conference” it never made sense at anyone point the entire
session, but I sat and listened. We became friends, almost dated, never worked
and we moved on.
My question at this point is, why
do you waste a person’s time if you know it will cost them? Why do you make
promises that you will never keep? Why do you say things that you don’t mean?
Why would you take someone to the lengths and then leave them hanging? Does it
sound fair at all that a person can be so consumed in everything else except
himself to even realize that he is hurting the people that can build, actually
that built him and were a stepping stone for him to get to where he is? Is it worth
it to lose all the people your life so you can make another comfortable?
I call that pure selfishness.
Ordinarily it would be selfless however when you do the math and think about
everything you realize that it is all him, it is all what do I get out of all
this. I spent an entire year watching my life play out a certain way in my face
and then two days later you are telling me that it is all simply a fantasy in
my head? Did you forget the things that were said in that one year so quickly
or do you need me to refresh your mind? I do not believe anything you ever said
to me concerning my immaturity, disrespect and all that crap because it was
just your way of getting me out of your hair so you can move on and clean up
shop.
It was sad because you missed out on alot of amazing stuff we probably could have done together. now all i have are the terrible memories that sadly not easily replaceable with the grate one that we once had.
message to all:
DO NOT TRUST ANYONE!
one and only
L.H.K
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